You Know It's Time

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When you open your closet and you get a flashback of your mother’s closet.
Your tops reach your knees. Or the neck hole is so big, one shoulder keeps showing.
They become your sleeping dresses.
Even with thermals, your pants are still loose and either makes you look like Bozo the clown or MC Hammer.
Your family tells you to buy a new pair of pants, and you tell them these are the new pants.. and show them the tags. I’ve gone from size 20 pants to size 12.
Run out of room to make a new button in the waistline of your pants... (While you are waiting to change whole sizes)
Put on a bra and both boobs could almost fit in one cup or they slip right out.
Put on underwear and somehow you have a leg hole around your waist. Now that was fun.. I still chuckle at that one...
Your shoes have one color, black,
My daughter has been helpful in that we (I say we but she went through the closet and pulled out two large garbage bags) of clothes that probably would not, or she would not allow me to wear... (Or be seen in public with me). They did not go to waste as they were passed along to someone that could use them.
Slowly but surely I’m clothes style is changing, smaller sizes. I used to buy clothes and they would literally hang in clothes for months because I was too embarrassed to wear them. And then when I did wear them it would just be a few times. Clothes always look good in the store when you try them on, but once you are home, sometimes they don’t and I was too embarrassed to go back to the store. The money I have spent..
I will now actually look at magazines and say I can pull that off, and go off and find the clothes I need. I was banded January 24, 2012 and now a year later my resolution is to continue to treat my lap band with respect and work in partnership to what I consider a success. Believe me I’ve had my ups and downs, but in weighing the good and the bad, the good wins laps, I just have to take the time to acknowledge that and congratulate myself.

*** Today, my daughter continues to clean out my closets and drawers, Uhm there still many be an outfit in my closet I have yet to wear .. And no I didn't win the contest, one of the guys literally starved himself, loosing 50 lbs in 6 weeks. when he was declared winner he went to Carls Jrs. got two burgers and inhaled them !! 
At work they just started a “Biggest Loser” competition, and I signed up. Of course I said I had a button in my stomach to make it the size of a peanut so I won’t eat, … I was joking but I think some believed me. No, no magic button. I NEVER ever would have even entertained the thought, to join something like that. Bring color into my wardrobe, go bold, go wild: become a fashionista!
Whether I win or lose, I made the challenge, I knew it was time!

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