From The Tub
So I'm trying to get back into the meditation, listening to Caitlin and Violet do their thing, my mind space is totally somewhere else right now. It feels like the world is a snow globe and I keep shaking it , watching the snow, it never falls into the same place twice. I'm not part of this world. I'm constantly looking, looking for my place in there yet I can't find it. I can play the part but those who know me, know that something within me isn't right. I was sitting in the tub trying to relax, because they say that is the best time, to put out intentions as we are "naked' and open. I asked for continue guidance, love and grace, for myself and those around me. What did I need to do to keep going. And I sat there with my eye closed, trying to drown out the sounds of the television, the neighbors, till there is only silence. What happened once was, I was so Zen I actually fell asleep for a few minutes, I scared myself so I try not to do that . I'm si...