I used To Be A Pack of Fries

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October 31, 2012

 Literally, come around Halloween time, I would head for the local thrift store and find a simple costume, two pieces of foams together, in forms of fires, or m &m's, costumes that would easily hide my bulk. I didn't want to be noticed, to make myself visible in fear that someone would crack a joke, that would break my heart, but on the outside I would laugh as well. As soon as office photo was over I'd change with the excuse that I couldn't do my work with it on. This year I dressed totally different, a nice slim dress, a crown and a new attitude. I was still cringing alittle. its hard to be in the limelight, step out of the shadows but I feel great today. Its been 41 weeks since I got the lapband!

**Today , I have been a princess/queen (again just smaller) and Minnie Mouse. 

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