I Can See Now

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I never saw…
 11 months later and I am almost 60 lbs lighter
I’ve become deliciously domesticated, lucky husband. I was off for 12 days last month and I thought it was going to be a struggle, but it was: a vacation, didn’t think about work or what I was missing, didn’t think about anything but my home and catching up to what had long been neglected, the dust bunnies, the cleaning and mostly my husband. On the first day home, his breakfast was a cup of coffee. By the 8th day it was fresh baked cornbread with sweet corn filling, eggs and potatoes, sausages. And I would sit with him drinking my protein shake with a small plate. And even now that I am back to work, I find that I enjoy doing that kind of stuff. I go home and pull out stuff for dinner, clean up right after.. Before the lap band, everything was on paper plates because I just didn’t have the strength the vigor to wash plates, but now that’s all I use. It’s a joy to be able to stand at the sink and not have to strain to reach anything. Or end up with aching knees from standing too long.

Now that my vision has been clearer, I find that having had that weight had blinded to the blessing I have always had. A strong loving family that is always supportive and will make fun of each other, but we are fiercely protective of anyone else doing so... all out of love. Good friends... I can’t go anywhere with out someone calling out my name and in all that is going on in my mind, sometimes I forget names, but I have a hubby who will lean over and say, you met so and so here or there.. .

This Christmas I want for nothing, because I have everything I need and want. My husband and I recently adopted a single mom and her baby for Christmas. We got the baby some gifts and the mom a gift certificate and bags of clothes (her size too boot) that I had cleaned out of my closet. The young lady was so thankful, her and her parents kept saying, God bless you and your family. Driving home, I thought I AM blessed and because I’m blessed I am able to pass some of those blessing forward.

I never saw so clear how blessed I was and now even more so. 

** Today, I still like doing the dishes, just not putting them away, hubby loves to cook so he usually has dinner cooked, the weekends are mine, we still continue to do community service. It's not something that you do, it's something that you live. 

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