From A BillBoard

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 #MagicWithinme,

God has given me many testimonies and I don’t always share them, but this one, he wasn't not going to let it sit.
Several weeks ago, a local preschool had a question on the billboard, "Who are your 3 closest friends?
My co-workers? Friends from Zumba? I have friends who used to be close but aren't any longer, I mean I was really racking my brain over this. Being a social person, I know many people but to consider them close friends? I was struggling with this question, I know I tend to take things literally and I know that's what was making it harder for myself. God always shows us the answers. I saw the sign on a Wednesday. Friday my husband came home from work and asked me if I wanted to go for a ride to the Lake, I said sure. Well to my surprise was my co-worker and his family were there with their church group, and they were fellowshipping around a campfire. I got cold so we went into one of the trailers where we continued to fellowship and read the bible, late into the night. The next morning, we head out to see a couple my husband has done some work on at the Golden Hills trailer park.They invited us to have breakfast their onsite. As we were leaving, Edie, hugged my husband and me and with tears in her eyes, said you know I love you like a son and I love you like family. Later that morning we were invited to a small wedding. I was asked to be the photographer. The family thanked me and the brides mom told me , you know you are part of this family right? . To be honest I didn't know they felt that way. I have known the family from church and fellowshipping. On the way home from this small wedding, God told me, these are your friends, these are the people I have put in your life for you to lean on, to fellowship with to pray with. When my mind was racing trying to find 3 close friends, none of these people had come to mind. I am deeply ashamed to say that. Did I think less of them, no I was thinking less of me, that I am the one not worthy of these people. God showed me I am worthy of all these people of faith, that he loves me enough to put me on the same path as these people, who have been in my life, whose faith is so strong, they are my lessons of life without realizing it. From a simple question on a billboard God showed me I need to know I am more worthy of what I deserve, who I deserve . Who are my friends? I can guess, but I know who my family is now.
Three times God put the owner of the preschool in my path, on the third time, I called him over and said I have to give you a testimony, but I have seen you three times in the past week, God put you in my path to where I couldn't ignore. It’s one of those, I know he knows I know what I need to do. Many times God takes me kicking and screaming to where I need to be and once I am there, I wonder why I struggled so much. This time I trusted him, I followed his whisper to let you know what I discovered. I get emotional because God talked to me and I heard him, felt him. This isn't always true for me. He talks to me alot but I get so busy that I'm not truly hearing what he wants me to hear.

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