Let me Spill

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It’s been awhile since I left a long post and then when I went to write down some things, the website was undergoing an overhaul. So here goes:

Mismatched Socks,

Who doesn’t get mismatched socks no matter how hard we try? Instead of throwing them away I use them at night or quick clean up rags. One day my husband and I went yardsaling and I kept my mismatched socks on, one lady said “Girl, do you know your socks don’t match?” and I replied I know but they work the same. God put in my head, just like marriages, we don’t match, not the same size and definitely not the same color, but we make it work, don’t ever give up. At times the combination may look really different but it works.

Now you aren’t talking to me?

It took me awhile before I realized that God was talking to me, but I was just too busy in the world to realize it. Sometimes it takes a speeding ticket, someone in pain, a grandchild with huge tears in their eyes to realize what we have and the realization that we have to stop to say thank you for the blessing we have been given.

It isn’t having faith in a scratch it ticket, or playing the lotto. I have to have faith that God will give me what I need, not what I want, although most times one list is definitely bigger than the other. After having lunch with my nurses as I call them, ladies I worked with when I was in my 20s, and now in my 50s we remain close friends. We talked about where we went and got relocated, I realized had God given me my desire and kept me in the original location, I would have not done the things I have done, met the man of my heart. And that is something that has happened twice; I feel God felt it wasn’t the time for me to move yet. There’s a position opening up where I work, with more responsibilities but yes more $. I prayed to God that if he felt it was my time I would follow.

Hubby and I went to a dinner where the speaker is a known prophet. As they went around the room, I was sure they would point to me and tell me something magical. I could feel my heart beating so hard, my husband held my hand. But they never came my way. I told my husband I was so sure that they would say something to me, he said sometimes God doesn’t need to give you a message. The messages given were for those whose faith was wavering, who was in need of a sign. God didn’t need to tell me anything, because he knows my heart is filled with his love and spirit. (smart hubby) For all the worrying I do, it all comes out in the end. I want to be successful, but I need to realize I want to be successful for myself and family not because I want to show off for anyone else.

Just because I can eat it, doesn’t mean I should, .. there…. Thanks for listening. lol

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