I Fell

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And I was ok…

It’s a ritual lately to take our grandbaby to the local McDonalds so she can play on the indoor jungle gym, (not to mention her visit with her father). Sometimes these visits seriously drag; This Sunday was just one of those days. I was going to go out to one of the nearby stores in the mall area. Trying to get around my hubby, I had my hand on his shoulder but in that moment he scooted his chair forward and I lost my momentum and fell to the ground. And I sat up and stood up and that was the end of that, with hubby dusting off the imaginary dust off my bum.

Last year had I fallen, before the lap band I would have been so embarrassed, thinking that everyone was snickering, laughing pointing, look the fat lady fell down. And I would have gotten up, but with tears of humiliation in my eyes. Even knowing it wasn’t my fault, accidents do happen, I would have been so mortified. In my head the earth shook, I sent tremors out from my fall, and I probably would have left. I’m sure many can relate.

After I got up and hubby was asking me if I was ok, I said I’m going to have a sore tail, I sneaked a look around and no one was looking! I realized as I was shopping in the store what a difference my outlook had been. I fell; plan and simple and no one gave it a second thought. How much the lap band has changed my life, my health, my relationships and in my attitude and view of myself.

When I first got the lap band, I can admit I took it for granted, but now 49 weeks later, the lap band and I are partners. We can not make the effort without each other. I can look into the mirror now, instead of avoiding it, getting mirrors that actual is full length instead of shoulder high. And I like who I see.

*** today  Lot of people were not aware that I had gotten the lap
band. but I got outed on FB (another story) I never denied it, I have always been open to those who have asked.  I even tried to put together a support group and although there was a lot of interest, not many people showed up. I have fell many times for various reasons but I no longer feel like I will cause an earthquake when I do. my journey continues.

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