I Will Always Hold her Hand

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 #MagicWithinme,


I have been banded 16 weeks have lost over 50lbs without any fills. there good days and bad, but I keep hearing I look good, its taken years off of me, I look like I did in high school etc. but when I look in the mirror I don't know who I'm look at, because that's not who I've lived with the past 50+ lbs.

The person looking back at me does look good, fresh looking skin, clothes that fit well, when she smiles she's beautiful, but I can see in her eyes, she still lacks self confidence. She is fearful of the unknown. The echos of hurtful comments, remarks still ring faintly in her head. They are fading but still there. She smiles but its only a facade for now. She needs constant reassurance and she gets it, she is SOOOO lucky to have such a supportive husband and a family .

I will always hold her hand and tell her how beautiful she is, when I can see it in her smile, she finally believes it..

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